Ah. Oh yes. No more finals. Take a look at what my finals schedule was like, and then take a moment to ponder why I might be so relieved to be on winter break.
Christian Heritage Final 9:30-11:30
Astronomy Final 2:00-4:00
Women in the Novel Final 6:00-8:00
Environmental Science Final 9:30-11:30
BREAK to exercise, take used books back to the bookstore, return library books, edit and drop off Brit Lit paper, eat, clean my dorm room, and cram for the last test.
British Literature 6:00-8:00.
For these past two days, I have either been bouncing-off-the-walls manic or dead-as-a-log tired. I went through a cycle of literally cramming my ass off, then taking the test, then disregarding that information and cramming for the next test, then taking the test, and so on and so forth. I have no one to blame but myself, though, since the finals are self-scheduled. I really love that set-up because I got to the tests when I wanted and in the precise order I wanted them. I could have distributed them out over the week until Monday, but I wanted to be able to breathe a sigh of relief earlier AND have a longer break.
I am 3/8 of the way to my B.A. and have 52 out of 124 credits. Woo.
After my last final, I said goodbye to JenTilly and then we went over to the Memorial Dorm to see Jenn and Rachel. It was nice to be able to just sit down with three other girls and be silly for a change. I think that this semester, I felt so obligated to sit and tie myself down to my schoolwork that I would really let myself go out and socialize as much as I would have liked. When I did go out and about on campus, it was always me swimming through a sea of people and feeling overwhelmed and intimidated. I don't enjoy being in large groups: I feel as though the conversations and the connections are too blurred and that it's more difficult to get to know a single person on a level of high quality. Tonight, with just four, everyone had a chance to speak with everyone else on a close level. I'm glad that I got to know Rachel a little better, I think she's a sweetheart.
During the break, I refuse to be upset about what has been gnawing away at me all semester. I refuse to invest any more time being angry when it comes to my job situation. More and more frequently as time goes by, I'm following a "if you're unhappy with the way something in your life is going, change it" philosophy. If I can't get what I want, I have plenty of people to support me and a plan up my sleeve. I'll teach, so help me God.
I refuse to be upset about the fact that Nick is going to Florida for a week and a half in January to visit his sister, and that we won't get to see each other for a while. I 'fess up to being the selfish girlfriend and at first reacting to his "time off" note at work with a, "What?! Eleven days visiting his sister and not staying here with ME?!" But he'll have fun, he hasn't seen his sister in almost a year and hasn't been down to Florida in about five
years. He asked me to come along with him, but I declined because he's traveling down with his parents and I wouldn't want to intrude on the time he spends with his family. His absence will give me a chance to enjoy doing things with my parents and friends (and do some fiction writing for myself), anyway.
This week promises shopping with mom, Shepherdstown with Caitlyn, not one but TWO parties with Donna's family (Eric came home tonight!), and cookie-baking. Mmmm. May the good vibes I'm feeling right now last for a long, long time.
Current Location: Hagerstown
Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: Joni Mitchell -- "Carey"