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I'm really enjoying this time off from school too much for my own… - with fingernails that shine like justice
and a voice that is dark like tinted glass
baronessblixen
baronessblixen
I'm really enjoying this time off from school too much for my own good. I've hooked up my old Playstation (that I haven't played in three years) and have been kicking some ass on the following games:





That's right, Ape Escape. Words cannot describe how much I love these cuddly, world-dominating little apes.


On Saturday night, Nick and I went to the cemetery to see the luminaries. Of course it was the cemetery where my grandfather is buried, and so I stopped and bought some red carnations (the kind that were on his casket last year) to put on his grave. I knew it would be hard, but I didn't expect it to be as hard as it was. I took a few minutes at the grave to simultaneously think and bawl and with the anniversary of his death being only three days away, I think I'd like to go back alone. Save Aunt Helen, my grandfather was pretty much the last remaining member of my extended family. I have no one outside of my parents. But in place of that there is good - like our connection with Donna and Debbie and their families. We're going over to Donna's on Friday night and I can't wait can't wait can't wait. Bring on the food and the dressing up and the games and the wine and the silliness.

Yesterday was spent baking cookies, shopping, and wrapping presents. The only person I have left to buy for is my mother. I thought I'd buy it today, but then Nick and I ended up spending almost the entire day in Baltimore. He showed me the site of the movie shoot that he participated in last year for Invasion of the Body Snatchers and took me to the building on which he spoke to *le gasp* Nicole Kidman! He was cold, and she walked over to him and said, "Don't worry, it'll be over soon." A moment like this... :]

I like spending time in Baltimore every once in a while, but I could never live in such a huge city. All that smog and the tall buildings that constantly seem like they're closing in. Even the panhandlers and beggars at every corner, especially during the holidays, are enough to make me stay in Hagerstown. Several asked Nick and I for change, tried to tell us stories, and one danced a circle around us while singing praises to the Lord. One crossed a street when he didn't have the right-of-way, and almost got hit numerous times. He spat on the hoods of the beeping cars and yelled every obscenity imaginable. It was heartbreaking.

Day trips take a lot out of me, so I'm off to bed.

Current Location: Hagerstown
Current Mood: tired tired
Current Music: Stevie Wonder -- "Livin' for the City"

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Comments
jamie1014 From: jamie1014 Date: December 20th, 2006 01:40 am (UTC) (Link)

I'm back!

Chelsea, it's me, Jamie. I'm back on LJ!
baronessblixen From: baronessblixen Date: December 20th, 2006 02:21 am (UTC) (Link)

Re: I'm back!

Hey boo! I'm going to comment on that entry of yours a little later, because I have a lot of advice to give.
azraeel From: azraeel Date: December 20th, 2006 02:16 am (UTC) (Link)
Wait wait wait - you have no extended family? At all? How do you function? I've got at least 20 people on either side, and can't imagine not having them - would you like me to share? Seriously, I've got plenty, and they'd be more than happy to adopt you.

Also, there are other options than "City" and "Hagerstown". Lots of options. Just please don't ever say "stay in Hagerstown" again unless you preface it with "I won't", or something to that effect.
baronessblixen From: baronessblixen Date: December 20th, 2006 02:25 am (UTC) (Link)
My grandparents on my mother's side are dead and my father's family lives in Pittsburgh, so I never get to see them. My cousins are pretty cool, but since we don't see each other but once every few years, it's hard to maintain a close relationship. The closest thing I've got to an extended family is my great aunt Helen (whom I love to death) and her daughter/grandchildren i.e. my second cousins. I would love to be surrounded by a nice big family like yours!

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